Thursday, January 12, 2012

The "F" Word

From the eyes of a newbie using the "F" word.

When I was two my parents divorced and my "Father" was never a part of my life. I have no memories of him, I don't know where he lives, and I will not curl up and pity myself because of it. I believe the supposed weaknesses that life throughs at you help strengthen other areas of your life. 


Because I never had a father there is nothing to be missed. Certain events, however, do hurt such as seeing a father walk his daughter down the isle, or a teenager how to drive, or a little girl in a fluffy dress perched on her father's shoulders. My grandfather took this role until he died a few years ago.


They say environment doesn't actually change people like most think, but the events in your life sure do. I am an extremely controlling, organized planner who likes to "take the driver's seat" you could say. I need to know what is going on in every aspect of my life and if my plan gets altered it feels like anarchy! I am trying to fill two rolls like my mom did, she was the girly house-wife and the punisher, the driver, and the hairdresser, the dish-washer and the money-maker.


So I am suppose to compare my future husband to my father, looks like that might not be in the cards for me...just a call out to those who grew up with one parent, we have an extra little something, let's use it to our advantage. 


Hailey

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